Hannah's Hope Chapter Eight

01/01/10

I have found out two more women at our church are pregnant, that brings the count up to four now, with three of them due in June. I almost feel like I did when I was a child and denied entrance into a club that I desperately wanted to join. You cannot help but see pregnant women and babies everywhere you go, it's just a fact of life. I can choose to be jealous and bitter, or I can choose to be joyful, seeing each baby for what it truly is - a blessing from God, even if it's not my own. I know that I need to come to God with my questions. I have not been faithful. How can I be nourished daily when I don't come to Him for my daily bread? I have been under quite a bit of stress lately, which in turn has had a significant effect on my health. I know my doctors are concerned. If God granted me my desire right at this moment, most likely the baby would have complications. I need to set aside my selfish desire until it is possible to bring another life into this world safely. I don't want to stop trying, but I know I must. I need to be healthy first off so I can serve the Lord and then my family. Babies should come last on my list! I need to get my priorities straight. I know I have not been treating my body like a temple at all! Therefore, my New Year's resolutions are twofold - #1. Be Healthy - eat better, get my numbers under control and exercise; #2. Be Spiritually Healthy - fellowship with other Christian women on a regular basis, have a daily quiet time and serve the Lord in all areas of my life.