Hannah's Hope Chapter Four

I definitely agree with the point that women and men deal with infertility differently. I liked how Jennifer compared it to a rollercoaster. I know that my DH would love to "find the break" on our ride. I know that I struggle with our SI more than he does, simply because I have the reminder of our dysfunction from my body every month. I am thankful that my body is fairly healthy and I know that we can get pregnant, since we've done it before. I am blessed that my husband doesn't feel the need to "be strong" and will open up to me about how he is feeling. I know that this has helped our marriage during this tough season. Neither DH nor I had any real idea of what "In sickness and in health" were going to mean when we got married. So far we have faced Type 1 Diabetes, Ulcerative Colitis, Reactive Arthritis, Anemia, Depression and Osteoporosis. SI is just something to add to the list. It hasn't been easy, but I know these conditions have brought us closer and made us more empathetic to others. DH has been very understanding of my need to mourn the baby we lost. He has been patient with my mood swings and taken DS when I needed time alone. I think DH and I do need to be better about praying together. Jeremiah 29:11 says ""For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."" I am confident that God's plan for me is good, even if it doesn't include more children. I have been so blessed by my life already and really God doesn't owe me anything. I am just having a hard time letting go of my personal dreams. I keep asking God to help me let go of my dreams for my life and accept God's dreams for me. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 talks about how our bodies are temples and honoring God with our bodies. I know that I haven't been taking care of my body well enough. I need to be better about exercising and eating better. I should try to find a buddy for that... someone to help hold me accountable.

Ordinary Princess J