Hannah's Hope Chapter Sixteen

Just as there are many definitions of a family, motherhood is not only defined by birthing children. I have been mothered by many women and in turn, have mothered many children. I currently have three amazing Christian women in my life (that are not related to me) that I can go to for spiritual support, advice and a listening ear. In addition to my son, I have mothered many children that I have worked with, especially a beautiful teenage girl that was once a part of my youth group. I pray that God will continue to allow me to mother many more children. What a tremendous blessing to so impact a child's life for the Lord!

If we ever do get pregnant again, I know that my loss of innocence will affect my thinking. I have heard so many heartbreaking stories along my infertility journey. I'm sure that Satan will use my fears to attack me where I'm vulnerable, but you can't live in daily fear. I will need to remember to offer everything up to the Lord, for His plans are good. There have been a few times that I have though God might take my living child from me. Even if that does happen, I need to remember that I can trust the Lord and He has plans for my child and I.

That finishes off Hannah's Hope. It's truly an amazing book and I highly recommend it to anyone going through infertility, miscarriage or adoption loss. I am currently experiencing peace in my infertility journey. My husband and I have decided to take six months off from trying to conceive to become healthier, both physically and spiritually. Somewhere along the way, we lost our focus on God and began focusing on trying to have another baby instead. WE are only one month into our break, but I already feel renewed and have experienced the peace that passes understanding that I know comes from my Lord. I pray that I will continue to grow closer to Him as I rest and reflect and then once again begin my journey along the road of infertility.